(Raw Day 178 – 188 To Go) June 25, 2008
[FBS = 98]
I don’t know what it was last night (or early this morning to be more exact, but I just about lost my mind around midnight.
I couldn’t stop thinking about burgers. I am nearly twenty years clean and sober and I haven’t had cravings and insane thinking in my head like this since I was still taking 30-60-90 day chips for staying sober in AA.
A little after midnight I got up, got dressed, and drove over to the Burger King. The drive-through window is open 24/7. I ordered a triple Whopper with cheese and a KING sized fries. I drove home and sat in the truck and ate them both. I made sure to savor each and every bite.
I climbed back into bed and went to sleep. The voices were gone. The cravings had gone. I had fed whatever beast was making me crazy and it was satisfied. I knew that my juice feast was finally over, and I was okay with that.
