(Day 68 – 298 To Go) March 8, 2008
Today I just got the final edition Angela Stokes’s new e-book, Raw Emotions. I cannot recommend it highly enough. Angela’s insight into what makes humans tick, with regard to food, is profound. Get your copy today.
Way back in the late 80s, I checked myself into an eating disorders unit at South Bay Hospital in Redondo Beach, California. It was called The Rader institute. That was my first exposure to eating disorders treatment. I had been clean and sober in AA for five months, but my eating had gotten out of control. My food obsession was taking over. It didn’t help that I was a checker at a local supermarket, being surrounded by food all day. I was dealing with hypoglycemia and what the doctors told me was bulimic depression. I would binge and then exercise until I dropped. I hadn’t thought to stick my fingers down my throat.
I called the hospital from my check stand at the supermarket and made an appointment to check myself in the next morning. At that time I weighed about 100 pounds less than I do now. When I look at photos from that time I think I looked darned good. It was all in my mind, so the facts really didn’t get in the way of my thinking I was too fat. It was after my thirty days as an inpatient that I started going to OA. From my perspective, the cure was worse than the illness. I was cured of my obsession with food. I didn’t binge and exercise any more. That didn’t mean that I stopped eating emotionally.
Getting back to Angela’s book. I wish I had that book twenty years ago. My life would have been so different. I have the book now, and love it. Here’s to a new life!
